Dancing in the Ruins

I ventured out on my own for the first time since the strokes — to see Above & Beyond live. It wasn’t just about music; it was about reclaiming independence, redefining healing, and realizing that moving on doesn’t mean leaving everything behind.

Why the Fuck Do I Feel This Way?

Welcome to another episode of “why the fuck do I feel this way?” Years ago, there was a Mel Brooks movie called *Blazing Saddles*. In it, Madeline Kahn played the character Lili von Shtupp, who had, for lack of a better description, an Elmer Fudd-style speech pattern. In one of her saloon numbers, she sang …

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Learning to Live with Change: Stroke, Retirement, and Independence

So I think I might shift gears a little here. As many of you know—and if you don't, I'll tell you again—I had a stroke a little over a year ago. Things were already going poorly in my career, and that was the moment I realized why I had been struggling so much in the …

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The Crowned Prince of Mediocrity

You ever feel worthless as a human being? When I’m in a funk, that’s the first thought that always crawls up. People like to remind me of my value—yada, yada, yada—but I still can’t climb over that wall sometimes.   I saw the shrink yesterday. And yes, I know some of you are thinking, “Good, …

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