Back to the Beginning

        Let's jump in the "way back machine." Well I hate the plot line of anything that starts with "X time earlier." Yet now I understand this ,so, I'm taking this blog back to the beginning—because I wasn’t always the person I am today. In the last two entries, you've read about …

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A Stroke of Realization

  Well, you're here today—and so am I. But what’s happened since his death? Oh boy, do I have a yarn for you. Let’s rewind. From about a year before the suicide until January of 2024, I believed I was spiraling because of substance use. It seemed like the obvious culprit—how else could things have …

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I Forgot Who I Was Before Him — Now What?

A lot has happened to me since this blog started and since the last entry I made. I am well as well as can be, but you'll find out more as I intend to bring this blog back in the hopes that I can begin the newest chapter / chapters in my life, the chapters …

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Everyone was always rooting for our relationship…

So right now, I am binge-watching of all things Bar Rescue and, of course, blogging and processing things about what happened in my 27-year relationship with him. Bar Rescue is a formulaic show. There is a bar that is failing, Jon Taffer (the host) shows up and recons the bar to see what is making …

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