Otherwise I’m Fine

“How are you doing?” seems like such a simple question until life becomes complicated enough that there’s no simple answer anymore. A reflection on survival mode, grief, friendships, executive function, and learning to walk a very different road than the one imagined years ago.

Emotional Urgent Care

Self-medication is rarely about getting high — it is about getting relief. This sardonic reflection explores trauma, addiction, avoidance, and society’s obsession with feeling better immediately instead of actually healing.

Three Years Later

Three years after my husband’s suicide, I reflect on grief, unhealthy relationships, self-medication, and the uncomfortable truth that healing is not the same as romanticizing the past. Sometimes survival means accepting that there will never be perfect answers — only the choice to keep moving forward.

Survival Mode Was Never Meant to Be Permanent

Long-term trauma changes the body as much as the mind. A reflection on hypervigilance, chronic stress, and the exhausting reality of living in permanent survival mode.