Two years later and counting…

Good old Facebook—if you use the basic settings, Facebook will remind you of everything that happened on a certain date in a certain year. Most of the time, they're not things that you always want to remember. There was a one-year series of about five or six shows on the Peacock network called *Swedish Death …

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I Am Not Okay

I am not okay.   I hate saying that out loud anymore because I know what happens next: the calls, the messages, the well-meaning panic from people afraid I’m going to hurt myself. Let me be clear: I haven’t had any thoughts of self-harm since that unforgettable day in May. Some might argue that my …

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LiveJournal, Wasteland Fishing, and the Absurdities That Keep Me Sane

Well, back from fishing in the Wasteland—yes, it’s a real thing now in Fallout 76—and I decided to revisit some journal entries from about 20 years ago. This was pre-MySpace, peak LiveJournal days. That platform was a chaotic mess in the best way. Looking back now, I can’t help but notice how some of my …

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Here We Go Again: The Grief I Didn’t Plan For

After logging out of the Wasteland today to deal with the glitchy mess that is real life (yes even life has as many weird resets as Fallout76), I started thinking again about the weird ways grief works. Specifically, my own particular flavor of widowhood and how it stacks up against the experiences of others. I …

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